Will I ever make it home....
Friday, April 11, 2008
...is not measured by the past successes of your life. It is surmountable by the recent events that may have failed to fall through for you. At least that is my personal opinion. Yes, things have been messy in the past 10 months since I moved back to this city. I have struggled. I have done things I never thought I would do in order to make some money to provide for my son. I have even given up completely on this city.


I'm planning on moving away. To where? Don't you worry about all that. I am going to execute this move on my own. I am not running away. I am going to start facing my problems. I have learned that I am not ready to be on my own. My wings aren't strong enough for me to fly yet. But hopefully with the right amount of kindness, persistence, and with a little faith I will soar once more. I never thought that things could get like this. But they have. And I have learned so much.

But at the same time, I have lost so much in the proccess. I'm trying to desperately remember who I was. What I wanted. What I dreamed and wished for. And all that comes to mind is a big blank. Not even some form of punctuation. Just blank. I don't know how to take that. I have disappointed the one person that means the world to me. And I keep doing it. And doing it. And all I do is cry for forgiveness. That one day he will see that it's all for him. The struggle. The pain. The tears I cry. It's for him.

I will continue to try. Well, scratch that. DO. There is no try.

At least, not anymore....
posted by The Devil @ 9:30 AM   0 comments
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