 It warms you from the inside, out. Towards your fingers. They alight with warmth and kindness. Where they touch, your warmth remaisn. Condensing on the surface. It is sadistic and pacifist. It is endearing and swallows you raw. It encases your dreams, fears, and hopes. Hoping for things you thought you'd never desire. It is all these things, and yet we search lifetimes to find it. Once we do. We make choices. Nurture it. Or let it go. You experience loss. You experience joy. You cry inpregnated tears. Tears that make you feel empty inside. That relieve you temporarily. You go insane in love. You lose yourself in that person. You think that your love will defy all odds. But sadly, this is not true. Love and marriage do not go hand in hand. Marriage is more than just a solemn promise made to try your best. It is the decision to make things work each and every waking day. To keep going. To not give up and lose ground. It can be described as battle. You will not surrender to the enemy. Love frees you of past inhibitions. It makes you see yourself as something better, grander, more real. You see yourself in the raw. As you came to earth. You love yourself more. Care more. You place another before you. To love unconditonally is impossible. I know this. We all have conditions for others. Tests, for them to pass or fail. You decide from there on if it is worth the risk. |
Shit! I suck at tests! whats with the marriage bashing, you don't want to marry me anymore? I love you!